So I’m sort of with this girl right now. I really have no interest of actually being with her, and i’m moreless just using her for some of my fixiations.

I haven’t always been like this. 2-3 years ago I would of never considered a one night stand or using a girl for my own personal satisfaction. However, I started getting used by girls I would fall madly in love with really badly. I’d feel so helpless and so much like a tool after they would tell me we were through being together. I think the reason why I am doing this is so I can finally make someone that is in love with me feel the pain that I have felt so many times…